Friday, March 29, 2013

Daddy-daughter Date

I took my four year old daughter in my completely pimp new automobile.  I love being in that thing.  I feel like a million bucks.  I deflect any thought of even so much as a scratch getting on it with this talisman: my eldest son is eighteen and I'm giving it to him in perfect condition.  I deflect a negative mental scenario with an easily constructed, ready-made self-inception.

So to speak.

Willow and I arrived at Macey's and I carried her in on my shoulders.  Along the front they had tall racks full of spring flowers for sale.  She leaned in to touch and smell them.  I touched the hanging pots lightly with my fingers.  The mountains are still capped in snow, but Spring is in the air.

We got some ice cream, plus a few cups for the other kids and went back home.  I played some Magic with the boys and then hit the sack.

Monday, March 25, 2013

Complete Baller

Hello again you handful of loyal followers, much appreciated.

I bought my dream car this week.  It's a new Chevy Equinox, the same as the picture I've had on my vision board for eight months.  It makes me happy inside.  I wash and detail it every day.  I feel like a major league executive every time I am in the driver's seat.  The first time I've actually been romantically in love with a vehicle.  I get it now. 

For the last eight months I've had no car at all, bumming rides off my workers.  Pathetic.  Oh, and thank you so much to all the people who gave me rides.  It all started last July when I read an article called the "vacuum law" which says you must give to receive.  Give first with nothing in return.  I looked at my '94 van, which was in good repair and fully paid and then signed the title over to a young couple without looking back.  Then nothing happened.  Then in the last month it all came together in quite a miraculous and unexpected way. 

What's on your vision board?  Have you made clear in an exact way exactly what you want?  Or are you still making up your mind?  You can't move forward with only a vague notion, with a "someday" to figure it out once your ship comes in.  Don't wait for the ship.  Get your ticket.  I would encourage you the reader to go online right now and buy your car in your mind.  It's a lot of fun.  Don't let any voices dissuade you.

This is only one particular item, the same concept can apply to any material object, physical attribute (a nice smile for example), a personal trait or virtue, or a relationship.  Get it clear in you mind.  Be sure you are truly excited about it and find a picture.  Then put it on your wall.  So, today it's a car.  If you could have any car in the world regardless of price, what would it be?  This is honesty.  If you let something hold you back you are being dishonest in a way because you know you want X but you're willing to let your voices tell you no and you settle for something less.

In my mind I'm a complete baller.  I'm a king.  A conquering hero who walks the land.

Anyway, on Saturday I headed up to the local game shop to pick up the Daemon army books.  Next door there is this old diner called the Purple Turtle which my wife remembers from her childhood, it's been there forever.  The food is greasy diner fare and pretty gross.
I had a handyman come out to take stock of all the huge list of stuff that needs to get done at my house.  My home has had the marrow sucked out by the business.  Every spare dollar has gone to furthering the studio so now I am working hard to get things back into shape.  I am quite a disastrous handyman so it's up to me to "get the money" and make this happen.
On the way home we saw this overturned truck.  That's a huge stream of gasoline leaking out.  I felt a wave of sympathy for the drivers as they were just standing nearby, shell-shocked.  Emergency crews had just arrived, thankfully.
On Sunday Willow was pretending to be sick for a while.
I've been playing a lot of Magic with the boys.  It's great bonding time.  I just love that game and can't get enough.  They are getting some really good critical thinking skills from it.  They can both give me a run for my money.

Today was a moment of wonder at the shop.  Downstairs in the artists' pool it was a hive of happy activity.  Just like I've always imagined and hoped.  It was a moment of beauty and bliss.  I feel like the luckiest guy in the world.  I am so grateful to be surrounded by such good people.

Tonight I got home, washed and detailed my baby, excising every flake of dust.  My kids came out and helped me.  I spent some time with my lovely wife, just talking some things over, then played some Magic with Griffin.  We had an easter-themed family home evening and ate some carrot cake.  Now it's off to dream-land for me with wondrous visions of goodness and prosperity.

Sunday, March 17, 2013


This morning I decided that my charity work is going to be foster homes.  I am going to create a foundation that effectively and anonymously helps the foster program in Utah and especially in terms of giving relief and support to foster parents.

My good friend Sarah was a foster parent for quite a while and I saw all the sacrifices she had to make.  There is a lot of pressure on foster parents and not a lot of assistance for them.

This is only a preliminary idea, it needs more work and of course money.

Saturday, March 16, 2013

Living and D&D

Starting in sixth grade my parents gave me near complete freedom.  I was allowed to go wherever I wanted, whenever I wanted, even sleep over on school nights, with only such that I would inform them where I would be before I left.

I'm surprised I lived.  I would sometimes go into the woods with nothing but shirt, cutoffs and shoes.  Somehow I would make my way back.  Actually, I did live, really lived, because of this.

The other kid in the pic here is Channing.  I'm trying to throw up the rabbit ears and he's looking at me like "dude, seriously?" 

Channing lived in the garage at his house.  However, it was a separate building and had been converted into a proper bedroom with carpeting, a bathroom and everything.  It was there that I first saw D&D, a game that was to change my life forever.

The two boys were playing Q1 Queen of the Demonweb Pits  My first character was a Human Fighter (no name) with 18 in every stat.  I soon took over as DM because I could read and understand the rulebooks really well.  I was so hooked.  It's all I could think of or do for many years to come.

Some of my fave characters from that era:
A cleric named Cirelce.
A gold dragon named Rachel.

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

The River

There is a river.
By the river there is a bucket.
On the bucket there is a sign.
"Drinks from the river: one dollar"

There is a river.

--Shawn Gately

Blue Neverland

Here is what's making me happy today.

Wednesday, March 6, 2013


On my vision board I have the following for the year 2072:

Personal Starship
  • Instant interstellar travel*
  • Mega-yacht luxury
  • 500 person capacity
  • Invincible defenses
  • Ultra-tech

 *no inter-galactic travel just yet.

I'm 103 and feeling fine thanks to nano-technology.

The picture here has the feel, but it's probably too small for hundreds of guests to enjoy themselves properly.  I'll call her "Beautiful".  Alam Almithal.

A Slight Change...

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Valentine's mini-Vacation 2013

In Spanish Fork the snow is melting.  There are still huge icy piles, but these are the last bastions of winter.  I feel extremely positive.  I am starting to write a "Future Journal" where I put in specific dates and write as if that day had already happened like I want.  It's a very interesting exercise, to fill in all the details.

The big news from this week is that my wife and I went on a one day mini-vacation to celebrate Valentine's Day.  This is something we planned well in advance and Tamie had the whole itinerary planned out as she usually does.

The short version is that we went out to dinner, stayed at a bed and breakfast then spent the morning at City Creek Mall.  That place if fantastic, just to walk around.  I tried to get Tamie to splurge on something but she just wouldn't do it.  She's got a mental block that I'm trying to break down, to get her in the mindset of prosperity.  Things are going well.  The bottom isn't going to fall out.  Elsewise there's never really any security, there will just be a neverending miserly quest to finally be "safe".  We are creatures of the wilderness, eminently equipped to survive and thrive day by day.  Humans are super-adapters.

Just as we were leaving she saw this bag she just loved, so I dragged her in the shop and picked it up for her.  It makes her feel like a million bucks.  She's now carrying around her old ratty busted up purse inside the new bag.  That is so Tamie.

Also, the night before we went for a couple's massage at Sanctuary, one of our favorite spots.  Inside the spa there's this softly-lit buddhist temple thing where you sit and relax for a while, then two women come out and scrub your feet then lead you to an inner chamber with a barely lit dome overhead.  They do aroma-therapy then lay you down on heated tables and get to work.  It's outstanding.  Unfortunately, I can't shut up so I'm jabbering on and making cracks.  Oh, when will it ever end?  Then the two women leave you alone in the candle-lit room with some treats, herbal tea, and water and a super-deep tub in the corner.  It's all quite deluxe.

That whole complex (about six rooms, a hall, and an antechamber) is now going to be incorporated into Mountain Valhalla 2.0.  Yes, a full on spa on site.  This whole time, as we're going to various shops I'm just popcorn-popping new ideas for business.  A change of environment can stimulate the idea factory.  I especially liked this one shop called Lush.  They had amazing environment and these little demo tables where they could show you how each thing worked.

I'm always a little skittish to relate "luxury" type experiences.  Because we're all supposed to be busted up and broke right?  Well, not anymore.  I dreamed and worked creatively and this is where I'm at after nine years.  And guess what?  It's only going to get better.  I'm going to bring joy, inspiration and ultimate wargaming to the world.  Good things will flow through me to others.

I believe that the dreaming part, the mind-work to build up a persistent positive image, is the real key.  Anyone can start with two hands and a mind and unfold it stage by stage.  To all those that read this I say "bless you".

Lastly, I have started a mentoring program which is worth every penny and more.

This was really incredibly quality time and we really felt more in harmony afterwards.  I hope to do this a lot more in the future.  I'm currently rustling up the funds so we can go on another mini-vacation for our Anniversary in late March.